*This post is from a few weeks ago. I finally got around to editing it and posting it now.*
These last couple of weeks kicked our butts! They involved two fevers (thankfully not the baby), three other random ailments, a doctor’s appointment over an hour away, and several nights of Dan working late. And of course the normal newborn craziness – little sleep, lots of diapers, seemingly constant nursing and laundry galore.
The house is a disaster. No really. A disaster. I let our 3-year old have free reign of the art supplies. She literally went through hundreds of pieces of scrap paper – drawing, cutting and taping to her heart’s content (occasionally stopping to blow her nose). There are a few sections of carpet peeking through the paper.
And I so badly want to freak out. To decide things will never get better. To make a list of everything that went wrong (because the above list is really just a start). To justify to the world, in detail, why I feel these weeks have been so hard.
But if those are the things I put in front of me, if that is what I focus on, the next couple of weeks will likely be a repeat. Because it’s really hard for things to get better if I put all the negatives in front of me.
So I’m purposefully choosing a different path. Because it really is a choice. Instead, I will put in front of me…
Our general health. A chubby little boy who’s starting to smile. A gentle big sister who gives her brother random kisses. A husband who helps. Craft supplies that keep our little girl happy while I nurse. The progress of one counter cleaned off.
A Savior who doesn’t give a rip what my floors look like. Who cares much more about my attitude toward my children than whether or not I showered today. A God whose peace passes all understanding.
This is not a glib, everything-will-be-perfect attitude. It’s one where I accept the negative (because let’s face it, I’m gonna be tired for a while – some say the next 18 or so years ) and accentuate the positive.
*I can now say keeping those things in front of me really did result in a much better last few weeks.*
What do you need to put in front of you this week?